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i had too much caffine tonight. im staying up waaayyy past my bedtime, which makes me feel like a major rebel. i also have a book i could be reading right now, considering i have an in class essay about it tomorrow. YAY for in class essays! they complete my life. Another thing that completes my life is chai tea lattes with nonfat milk and carmel. they are the best things i have ever tasted. and i had two of them tonight. i would recommend the carmel syrup though, instead of the carmel topping.

my ghetto-exgangster-graffiti tagging friend was talking to me on aim tonight and i was telling him how theres no guys here that i could see myself dating and this is the reply i got: "heres da ding, find a good guy, not a nice guy, nice guys finish last" thank you, Grandee. man, i miss that kid. he always had the best advice for me. like how for prom lauren and i were going to get ugly thrift store dresses and wear them and D was like "noo you cant do that!!!" well actually i kind of regret not doing that. it was a bad example of D's advice.

i think its really cool how God shows himself through small things. On sunday i was trying to get to this Chris Tomlin church service at Austin Stone....it was uncecessful because i am horrible with directions, but anyway it was cool because i was driving on this highway that takes you kind of around Austin and you can see the city from the road and got to this high lookoutish spot and the sky was really bright and then the clouds were dark over austin and there was a rainbow that looked like it was coming out of the center of the city. maybe im lame, but cloud formations and sky things really intrigue me. in the bibe after the great flood with noah and the ark God promised that he would never flood it like that again, and rainbows signify that promise. its cool that after so many years, God has still kept that promise and we see it after almost every rain. it was definitely worth getting lost to see that.

my philosophy teacher says that describing things like sunsets and rainbows takes the meaning out of it. i think hes right. its not the same when i describle it. the second i think about it and i dont take it for what it is, the whole meaning of the rainbow is destroyed. its the same with religion and how we discuss religion so much but if we dont even talk to God, how do we know anything about him? kind of like if i looked up a bunch of books on my best friend but never talked to her. do i actually know her? nope.

wow its now 2:15. i really need to go to bed.
until next time.